Change is Hard but Completely Necessary

For the purpose of full disclosure, this post will be more like a journal entry than useful in any kind of way.

Change is hard but necessary

It feels like a zillion years since I’ve posted anything. The last six months have been a roller coaster of emotions. Because I like the good news before the bad, that’s where I’m going to begin.

Positives:

• At the beginning of the year, my husband and I found out we were going to be a Grauntie and Gruncle again – TWICE! Just a few weeks ago, my nephew and his wife welcomed their baby boy. My niece and her husband will welcome their second baby boy before the end of this month.
• I celebrated 650 hours of Camp Gladiator! All that time spent working to make myself healthier is also such a great stress reliever.
• Last month I was able to spend early a week with one of my closest friends as we chaperoned a Disney trip with her kiddos.
• My husband and I are planning a Boston vacation with both of his sisters for later this year!

change is hard.

I’m good at my day job. I don’t mean that to sound conceited or vain but I know how to get things done. I have a strong work ethic, good time management and I know what to do in order to be successful in my position. Also, I’m not afraid to ask questions when I don’t have the answers. But I’ve spent about the last six months trying to prove my worth. Among so many other things, I was told I wasn’t trustworthy and I was told about/sent a large number of job openings. So after feeling like I was intentionally being pushed out, I decided it was time to move on.

After a ton of tears and the realization that I needed to leave, I applied and interviewed with a couple of different elementary schools but we weren’t a match for one another. I was offered a job doing much of what I do now at a middle school just down the road.

In my heart of hearts, I know it’s the change I need but my heart is broken. I didn’t want to leave. It was my school first. Both of my boys attended CES, I learned how to be a better mom, I joined the PTA and ran a non-profit there. When it was decided that kids were going to go back to schools across the country after covid, the principal asked me to fill an open position she had. She took a chance on me and I blossomed. When she took a promotion and a new admin team was put in place, I become a better listener because teachers needed me.

My things have been moved to my new campus for over a week but today is my last day here and everything is hitting hard. Saying goodbye to my school, my friends, everything I know … it’s difficult. But it’s also a little freeing. I won’t shouldn’t have to cover for people anymore. I’m going to a more professional environment where I’ll wear fewer hats so I can really focus on my position.

Change is hard but it’s also completely necessary for us to become who we are meant to be.

**I typed this post at the peak of my emotions. It’s been several weeks and I’m ready to share. I have reviewed everything I typed and it’s all accurate. The only change I made as to correct a typo. I start the job at my new school next week.